I 100%, 1,000%, 1,000,000% am not in the mood to blog tonight.
I am tired. I had a long, hard evening at work. So many things went wrong that had me mentally exhausted by the end of it.
I didn’t even really want to get into editing my story draft today.
Yet, here I am, here am I. Writing regardless of that.
Now, I’m completely aware that some are of the mind of “well, if you’re not feeling it, don’t do it”. For some, that’s a correct mindset to have; it’s plain to see that you won’t always get your best work out of writing on your bad days.
The thing is, though, that doesn’t work for me.
I spent far too many bad days not writing. I spent far too long letting that consume me, and it set me back so many years. I let people’s thoughts, opinions, disregard and everything in between prevent me from doing what I needed to do, and frankly? It messed up how I see this kind of thing.
So right now, I’m trying to rebuild my writing habit.
I could definitely just not do it, and wait until the motivation comes back…But I’m afraid that it won’t, and I don’t want to risk going back into that hole. I refuse to get anywhere near the rut I crawled out of only a month back.
So even if it’s a short post, I will write. Even if it’s half a chapter, I will edit.
I will develop this habit as much as I need to, and find different ways to grasp that motivation until it becomes as natural as blood flowing through my body.
What’s motivating me now?
My beautiful, sweet little kitten, resting half on my lap, half on the desk while I write. Watching as my fingers tap against the keys, watching the screen as words appear across the page. Purring, and being my little cheerleader.
She doesn’t have a clue what I’m doing, but she encourages it. And that’s exactly the energy I need.
Find your own way to motivate, to create your habit. Everyone has one, and you will absolutely get to where you need to go if you only learn how you work the best way possible.